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another moral quandary

for quite some time now, i have had a family of rats living in the roof/ceiling of my detached garage; actually, until just recently, i thought it was squirrels(which really are tree rats)
but recently i have been seeing the lil critters and they are definitly brown rats(norway rats)

i feel uncomfortable now, worring that they will come in the house; on the other hand this mother rat has been using the garage as her home for many years now and i just thought she was something else; perhaps they are more in the open now because sweet Tigger Roo has passed away and they arent as afraid

of course yorkies are ratters too
Tessie frequently brings in dead baby birds (icky) that i have to dispose of
the smell of dog should hopefully deter them from moving into the house

anyway, once i realized it was rats, i started thinking i really should dispose of them somehow
see this link http://www.247wildlife.com/rats.htm

i really dont want to poison them or use traps that would kill them, as then i would have to touch them/see them/dispose of their remains, but mostly i would feel guilty because they arent hurting me or anything, just trying to live their little lives; "do no harm" kind of rings in my ears

what do you think????what would you do?

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its that time again dagnabit
i went to check my room monday; our school hosted summer school for LEAP retesters as well as a special ed summer school; i wasnt sure if my room had been used and i wanted to see if i had any mess to deal with or anything missing; luckily for me my room hadnt been used

the floors had been waxed and all the furniture was piled in a a corner, so yesterday(tuesday) i went back and straightened the room; today i had scheduled too attend a tech class that qualifies me to check out a lab-in-a-bag---6 laptops and accessories----for 2 weeks, twice a year; this will come in handydandy for when we do research projects

today is also melodie's birthday
HAPPY BIRTHDAY ELDERLY ONE!!
lolol
here's a card offered at 10percent to help celebrate

guacamole or sour cream?

 
tonite we have reservations at the Harlequin at 6pm
yall all come!!!(i mean, stop by and visit)

 

 

i have been totally miserable lately
my ears have been bothering me for most of 2004
i go to the doctor every 3 months because of my emphysema, and i keep a medical journal that i carry with me to the doctor that lists all y concerns and questions and i write down everything he advises, etc----i tell you this so that you understand that when i say that i have been suffering for more than six months it isnt a guess

anyway, the point of all this is that my doctor has had me on a regimen of zyrtec and nasacort since march and this has not cleared up and i am tired of the pain
yes i have been alternating aleve and advil for the pain, but this has been going on long enough
alan is sending me to an otolaryngologist(earnosethroat); i am hoping that we can get tubes put in without having to go through another 6 months of pain while we try a different regimen; alan is sending this doc a note---he went to high school and medical with the man and hopefully we can skip the "i know better than a gp" crap and get this done

i am such a wuss; i want to be put under for the procedure like kids; adults usually only get a local, waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

anyway, my appt with the ENT isnt until august 10, which is 2 days before i return to work, so if he agrees to do the tubes, it wont be until after school starts

this story is known by many already
i tell it now in support of someone in particular
 
love is a very strange thing
often we fall in love with people that are totally wrong for us
but our heads cant dictate to our hearts
 
manuel was a hot frycook at the chinese restaurant where i was working parttime for extra cash
melodie and maryjean convinced me to work there, so i guess all that follows is THEIR fault, lol
i told mel i'd have him and she refused to believe it
he was 'obviously straight'
whatever---i have had many a 'straight' man
 
it began innocently enough
i began visiting him after work, tossing back beers, etc
fast forward a few months
manuel moves in with me
one day after i get off from my day job, he tells me "you're gonna be mad at me"
omg
omfg
"i took some money from your*hiding place*"(he musta really searched to find it too)"and spent it on drugs"
what kind of drugs?
crack
 
yes my hunky latino was(is) a crack addict
i thought i could help him/cure him/whatever
 
i didnt realize he was an addict at first/i'd had no experience with this drug
i even tried it with him(it was my money he'd used after all)
over the next several months, when he'd fall off the wagon and buy, i'd partake, but i never really cared for it
my drug of choice was pot
(i am drug-free now except for prescription meds necessary for life)
 
i then learned what happens when the addict cant afford his next fix
things disappear from the house
then when you put a stop to that or they run out of things to steal from you they wake you in the middle of the night and hurt you till you give them money
 
they take your car without asking while you sleep to go to crack houses
they kidnap you and drag you to crack houses
they try to strangle you when you try to get away from them
they mentally beat you till the stockholm syndrome takes over
maybe its some other, jj would know
 
the problem is we cant stop loving them
i paid for mine to move cross country, but at first i meant to go join him
i cannot imagine the life i would be living if i had
thank god i am free
 
dear friend, if you need me i am here
i KNOW what you are going through
i am not saying to throw away the relationship
that isnt something anyone can decide for you
but if it gets to the point of physical abuse, you must do something
dont let another's problems kill you
 
i was never addicted to crack, but i was addicted to pot, tobacco, and alcohol
i am free of those
it feels good
 
the crack addict wants to be free too
but only they can free themselves
we cannot do it for them
we cannot will it
when it comes down to addiction, the drug is more important to them than anything, even you
and it hurts
it hurts
 
he still calls
i try to avoid talking to him
i dont want to feel that
i hate him
and i love him
(mel is groaning now)
i dont answer his calls until he calls my folks and they wanna know why i wont talk to him, blahblahblah
 
there is too much they dont know
 
man, i feel as though ive written a lot, but written nothing
but i AM here
all your friends love you
dont be afraid to lean on us
 
 
 

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i found CableNut by reading pcworld magazine
i have noticed in big difference since i downloaded cablenut (dontcha know if its got 'nuts' its gotta be good!)
read this pagefirst before downloading;it's directions are easier to follow than the readme directions that come with the download

a couple weeks ago i had read that "scotty" had announced that this next convention would be his last; now i understand why: parkinson's, diabetes and alzheimers

CNN.com - James Doohan,�'Trek's' Scotty, has�Alzheimer's - Jul 7, 2004

i love a good sale
today i went to foret furniture
BIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIG sale
allegedly
you know how it is
there were hundreds of items on sale
but what i bought wasnt
sigh

for some time now i have been having a lot of trouble sleeping
when i get up in the morning, the bed looks as though i was fighting someone in my sleep; i wake up frequently(many times to pee, but not always) and i frequently wake up with back pain

so.....i need a new mattress, right?
"maybe" is a good answer
on sale---lots of mattress sets

i walk in and a pretty black man asks if he can help me
i reply yes you can, but right now i need to buy a mattress set(teehee)
(actually i had a sex dream last night and i SWEAR this guy was the man that i....)
anyway, i digress

he asks if this is for a spare room/extra bed or for my personal use...and i immediately know that nothing i will want will be on sale

but i did get a very nice sealy savor cushion firm set
and i only spent 693.32(delivery and set up are included at no additional charge)
(and it should be delivered sometime tomorrow)
then i went grocery shopping
monday mel and i are going shopping
i need a rich husband