Wednesday, January 28, 2004
i am a HORRIBLE person
you are all absolutely right for totally despising me
i am a waste of good air
today, moments after walking into the house from work, i hear a sound like tapping at the front door
the dogs didnt even pick up on it and go ballistic as they normally would, but they were excited cuz daddy was home
i, stupidly, went to the door and opened it
tess, my sweet princess, who loves everyone, runs out to lick the visitor, who recoils in horror and shrieks,"dont let your dogs bite me!!!!"--armando and gabriel are of course barking and howling in their wolven chorus
omg, this is like the second time in as many days that we have been insulted---WE do NOT bite people, thank you very much!
anyway, i digress
this woman on crutches then asks"can you give me a ride somewhere?"
i dont know her and i without even considering her request said--i'm sorry, i cant help you and closed the door
as i'm shutting the dorr and she is turning away i realize she is on crutches because she only has one leg
of course i have my issues from the past ---every time i try to help someone it turns into a nightmare for me--last time i said, "never again will i help a stranger"
i went back inside, fed the babies and then like a freak of guilt, i went looking for ms. one leg
i didnt find her
where could she have gotten to so quickly?
could she have already found a ride elsewhere
was it yet another con that i somehow sidestepped?
i feel badly
but wait, i am even more evil than you think
last nite, i tossed my 15 year old cat out the house into freezing temps because she is a bitch, but even so, it was mean
before i got the pups, she was indoor/outdoor
after i got the babies, she stopped wanting to come inside
for the last 5.5 years, she has been outside
all of a sudden this past fall she started wanting to come in
fine
no problem
come in
all has been well for the past several months
all of a sudden last night she starts walking around peeing on things
she peed on tess's bed, on the rug and then here and then there
i'm a good daddy...i follow behind her, cleaning with simple solution for pet stains and then, i'm like---go outside dammit!
later, i let her back in
she walks straight to the dogfood dish and pees in their food
that was the final straw---i yelled grabbed her up and unceremoniously tossed her out the door and she is not coming back in
i have been saying for the past year that she seems to be going senile
she may even be pissed off at the dogs for some reason, or even have a medical problem that she is trying to get my attention but i just will not tolerate it; my dogs are my babies!
but...it got down to 26 last nite
anyone still speaking to me?
you are all absolutely right for totally despising me
i am a waste of good air
today, moments after walking into the house from work, i hear a sound like tapping at the front door
the dogs didnt even pick up on it and go ballistic as they normally would, but they were excited cuz daddy was home
i, stupidly, went to the door and opened it
tess, my sweet princess, who loves everyone, runs out to lick the visitor, who recoils in horror and shrieks,"dont let your dogs bite me!!!!"--armando and gabriel are of course barking and howling in their wolven chorus
omg, this is like the second time in as many days that we have been insulted---WE do NOT bite people, thank you very much!
anyway, i digress
this woman on crutches then asks"can you give me a ride somewhere?"
i dont know her and i without even considering her request said--i'm sorry, i cant help you and closed the door
as i'm shutting the dorr and she is turning away i realize she is on crutches because she only has one leg
of course i have my issues from the past ---every time i try to help someone it turns into a nightmare for me--last time i said, "never again will i help a stranger"
i went back inside, fed the babies and then like a freak of guilt, i went looking for ms. one leg
i didnt find her
where could she have gotten to so quickly?
could she have already found a ride elsewhere
was it yet another con that i somehow sidestepped?
i feel badly
but wait, i am even more evil than you think
last nite, i tossed my 15 year old cat out the house into freezing temps because she is a bitch, but even so, it was mean
before i got the pups, she was indoor/outdoor
after i got the babies, she stopped wanting to come inside
for the last 5.5 years, she has been outside
all of a sudden this past fall she started wanting to come in
fine
no problem
come in
all has been well for the past several months
all of a sudden last night she starts walking around peeing on things
she peed on tess's bed, on the rug and then here and then there
i'm a good daddy...i follow behind her, cleaning with simple solution for pet stains and then, i'm like---go outside dammit!
later, i let her back in
she walks straight to the dogfood dish and pees in their food
that was the final straw---i yelled grabbed her up and unceremoniously tossed her out the door and she is not coming back in
i have been saying for the past year that she seems to be going senile
she may even be pissed off at the dogs for some reason, or even have a medical problem that she is trying to get my attention but i just will not tolerate it; my dogs are my babies!
but...it got down to 26 last nite
anyone still speaking to me?
